You thought you could take him from me, but you lost. Now, that he’s mine I’ll do anything to keep him. Do you doubt me? I have everything that was supposed to be yours. In case you were wondering; he doesn’t ever think about you anymore. I won’t let him go….ever.
Leah Smith finally has everything she has ever wanted. Except she doesn’t. Her marriage feels more like a loan than a lifelong commitment, and the image she has worked so hard to build is fraying before her eyes. With a new role and a past full of secrets, Leah must decide how far she is willing to go to keep what she has stolen.
Dirty Red is the sequel to The Opportunist (you can find my review here
). I strongly recommend reading the first book in the series.
Tarryn blew my mind once again, her talent is remarkable. She chose Leah, Caleb’s wife as the main character for this book. I can honestly say that she represents the definition of the word “bitch” – spiteful, vindictive, malicious and selfish. Leah has a troubled past and a loveless childhood, but to me, that is not a good enough reason for an adult to act and treat people in this manner.
It starts with her giving birth to their daughter Estella. The minute she sees her, she’s instantly repulsed. She has no maternal instincts whatsoever, no love, not even a fondness, nothing.
“But, then it hits me. When she’s gone, Caleb isn’t going to be staying home with the baby. I am. This business trip is the first of many during which I am going to have to pull all-nighters and change … human excrement … and — oh God — give baths. I almost fall off my barstool. A nanny, I have to break Caleb on this and make him see how much I need the help.”
Her insecurities and jealousy are unbearable. Being in her head is a strange experience; she’s the perfect example of an unfit mother. Leah neglects and often forgets about Estella, and when Caleb finds out, he decides to move out. That sends Leah in a fit of desperation and rage. And we all now what that can do to a psychologically challenged person. She makes mistake after mistake, including arranging an anonymous meeting with Olivia (Caleb’s first love). Deep down she knows she was a second choice to her husband and can’t get over it. We get to know Leah in an intimate way right down to her core.
“I knew he never loved me like he loved her, but I wanted him anyway. I knew his love for me was conditional, but I wanted him anyway. I knew I was second choice, but I wanted him anyway. But, this was too much.”
The story again is told in alternative time chapters – past and present. We get to find out Leah’s side of the story from the moment she met Caleb until present. How she manipulated him and Olivia to keep them apart through calculated moves. The ending surprised me, especially Caleb’s confession. I feel sorry for him; the odds were definitely not in his favor. Sometimes destiny has a way to mess up our lives, doesn’t it?
“Her face was slimy and red. Dark half– moons camped around her eyes. She looked away.
“You left me.” Three words. I felt so much guilt I could barely swallow.
“Caleb, please come home. I’m pregnant.”
I closed my eyes.
No! No! no…”
I could talk for hours about this book and especially its characters, but I’ll let you discover it for yourself.
Tarryn Fisher is truly an amazing writer and like I said in my review for The Opportunist, creates the most perfectly imperfect characters. Can’t wait to find out how this raw and powerful story ends – Thieve (Love me With Lies #3).
5 Shinning stars from me 🙂
“Hate is suck a prodigious feeling. It´s hot and oppressive like fire. It starts by burning through your God-given reason until there is nothing left of it but a mound of ash. It moves on to your humanity next, hot tongues flicking across the few remaining threads of innocence until they melt into each other and morph into something ugly. Then, in the rubble of what you were, hate plants a seed of bitterness. The seed grows to a vine chokes what it touches.”
Thanks for reading,