The Nocte Trilogy by Courtney Cole
My name is Calla Price. I’m eighteen years old, and I’m one half of a whole. My other half– my twin brother, my Finn– is crazy. I love him. More than life, more than anything. And even though I’m terrified he’ll suck me down with him, no one can save him but me. I’m doing all I can to stay afloat in a sea of insanity, but I’m drowning more and more each day. So I reach out for a lifeline. Dare DuBray. He’s my savior and my anti-Christ. His arms are where I feel safe, where I’m afraid, where I belong, where I’m lost. He will heal me, break me, love me and hate me. He has the power to destroy me. Maybe that’s ok. Because I can’t seem to save Finn and love Dare without everyone getting hurt. Why? Because of a secret. A secret I’m so busy trying to figure out, that I never see it coming. You won’t either.
Courtney Cole has been a favorite author at BT for awhile, because of the versatility of her stories and writing style. She can do paranormal romance, adult humor, and even Young Adult. But I have to say this is my favorite series she has written so far.
The first book in this series sets a serious tone, because we get to see everything play out from both Calla and Finn’s point of view. So much happens, that I could not put this book down. I wanted to read it very chance I got. I was just like Calla when she read at the hospital, waiting for Finn to finish his group sessions.
Having my nose buried in a book accomplishes two things.
1. It lets people know I’m not in the mood to be talked to. And 2. It kills the boredom while I wait.
That is me waiting for my train and my commute to work every day. Reading is my solace. And this book kept me riveted, because I thought I knew what was going on about 50% into the book, and then I changed my mind 75% into the book, but by the end, I was like…Woah.
I seriously loved both Calla and Finn. Like the summary says, they are like halves of a whole, so I couldn’t love one over the other. After their mother dies, they rely on each other so much. But then Adair DuBray shows up…
She has an interest outside of me. Something that came between us, even though the moment is small..even though it’s just a stupid drive to the beach.
Even though I want to be unselfish, I don’t know if I can handle it.
We were outsiders our whole childhoods and all the way through high school. And while it sucked, it was also a hidden blessing, because since I was all Calla had, she focused solely on me. We’ve always been everything to each other.
Bile rises up in my throat as I watch her descend the porch steps and walk across the lawns, her chin stuck out, and her hands buried in her hair as she arranges it over her shoulder.
I need her. I need things to stay the same. But I can’t risk her. I can’t suck her down. I can’t let my craziness swallow her than spit her out. But I need her.
My thoughts are contradicting and confusing and swirl around in my brain until I can barely focus. I stagger to the window seat and stare down, my forehead pressed against the glass as I try to catch my breath.
Serva me, sevabo te.
Adair Dare DuBray. He adds so much to this story. He’s mysterious, sexy, British, and I think…. truly cares about Calla. He gave me pause.
As we walk, I know without looking where Dare is. It’s like I’m a planet and he’s my axis…or my sun. I feel his heat, I feel his presence, and I ache to lean into it, to fold into him, to absorb his strength.
It’s a sudden urge, and I’m startled with the intensity of it.
I’m startled because I’ve never felt it before, not like this. It’s enough to make me feel guilty, because it distracts me from other feelings that have overwhelmed me lately…the blinding grief.
I can’t say much more about what happens without giving too much away, but I was so happy that the second book was released on February 2nd, because I couldn’t not wait to read it….
Verum (Book 2) by Courtney Cole
The truth shall set you free.
My name is Calla Price and I’m drowning.
My new world is a dark, dark ocean and I’m being pulled under by secrets.
Can I trust anyone? I don’t know anymore.
The lies are spirals. They twist and turn, binding me with their thorns and serpentine tongues. And just when I think I have it figured out, everything is pulled out from under me.
I’m entangled in the darkness.
But the truth will set me free.
It’s just ahead of me, so close I can touch it. But even though it shines and glimmers, it has glistening fangs and I know it will shred me.
Are you scared?
Now this book is totally blew me away. The setting has changed because Calla goes to England to her mother’s family estate, and just when I think everything is starting to make sense, it does a 360, and my jaw is dropping and I am flipping out.
I sink to my heels just inside of the door.
The walls close in on me, four of them and the ceiling, coming closer, swallowing me, crushing me. I cover my ears and rock back and forth because amid everything, I still hear my brother’s voice.
It’ll be ok. It’s be ok. It’ll be ok.
I can’t keep hearing voices.
Not even Finn’s.
I’m sane, Goddamnit.
I’m overwhelmed by Dare’s lies, by my fear…and by the very real fact that I’m so very fragile.
“Her hold on reality is tenuous.”
Elastic Heart by Sia
This song broke me the first time I heard it…
I give both books 5 mind-blowing/total mind-fuck stars, and put them on my “books that own me” and “top shelf fantastic reads” shelves on Goodreads.
I am not sure if everyone else does this, but I always read the Forward from the author when starting a book. Courtney is quite telling in her’s for this series. She could have gone a completely different route with this story, but she chose not to, and I am very glad for it.
Again, things are not what they seem and thank God we don’t have to wait too long for Lux, the third and last book. It will out in May. *relieved sigh*